Delightfully Horrendous!

11:39am: "My song has put off her adornments.
She has no pride of dress and decoration.
Ornaments would mar our union;
they would come between thee and me;
their jingling would drown thy whispers"


(excerpts from) Fireflies

I touch God in my song
as the hill touches the far-away sea
with its waterfall.


The butterfly counts not months but moments,
and has time enough.


Let my love, like sunlight, surround you
and yet give you illumined freedom.


Love remains a secret even when spoken,
for only a lover truly knows that he is loved.


Emancipation from the bondage of the soil
is no freedom for the tree.


In love i pay my endless debt to thee
for what thou art.


The shore whispers to the sea:
"Write to me what thy waves struggle to say."
The sea writes in foam again and again
and wipes off the lines in a boisterous despair.


Let not my thanks to thee
rob my silence of its fuller homage.

The butterfly flitting from flower to flower
ever remains mine,
I lose the one that is netted by me.


I miss the meaning of my own part
in the play of life
because I know not of the parts
that others play.


Before the end of my journey
may I reach within myself
the one which is the all,
leaving the outer shell
to float away with the drifting multitude
upon the current of chance and change.

2:50pm: missing things and thefts in moorpark
I am fucking tired of this goddammed bullshit. We live in Moorpark. Moorpark is the suburbs. It sucks. However, we have always been able to rely on the relative constant of safety and living in a very "safe" town. This was a perk. You could leave your car and even your house unlocked at night and not ever worry about people violating your property and stealing petty shit. My wallet and Bree's purse was stolen out of my car while it was parked for no more than 4 hours in front of her house. My wallet had no cash in it and one ATM card with my picture on it. Obviously the people doing these things are fucking idiots. I've been around kids, fucking idiot kids who are mostly responsible for these ridiculous crimes. A specific example was someone who will go unnamed at this point who broke into a house, stole a purse and had no recollection of what happened to the purse the next day simply because he was on something like 30 Somas. Seriously, what is this place coming to that this is what sixteen year olds are doing for "fun". Personally, I don't really give a shit about the law and I hate police, but this is over the line. These crimes are benefiting no one, in that these fucking upper middle class kids are stealing things and cannot even remember where the stolen shit goes. While they claim to hate police (obviously as burglars), they are making the entire situation worse. Because of these types of people and crimes, I have been searched by police for nothing other than sitting in the back seat of my own goddammed car. Because of these people there are police on every street corner, and their numbers are only increasing. Thanks, you fucking idiots. I'm glad that you maybe get a pathetic rush from fucking complete strangers in the ass and causing their lives to be more stressful. My wallet was stolen and I canceled my bank card the next day. The card was never used. What the fuck? There were things in my wallet that were more valuable to me than some fucking charges on my debit card that the bank would reimburse me for, yet the whole wallet it gone. You people are scum.

Besides this situation, my pipe, my bong, and my digital camera are missing from similar situations. After lending my pipe to someone for less than a week, it disappeared without a trace from the car along with an iPod. In this same car, I had left a discreet duffel bag which held my bong and my digital camera. Presuming it to be safe in the trunk of said car, I left it there for about 2 to 3 weeks. When I went to retrieve it, it was nowhere to be found. The owner of the car claimed that there was no way that it was stolen, but alas it is gone. There has been no excuse, no apology. No reimbursement. I am so glad to be leaving this fucked up place. At least in San Francisco, when something gets stolen you know that whoever stole it probably needed it or something pretty fucking bad, and that it wasn't some douche-bag middle class high school kid who never got enough attention from his parents and doesn't know how to escape his sad sad life. Good luck getting through summer school and C School, you fucking pieces of shit. School sucks though, right?

I realize also that no one really uses these goddammed things anymore and I'm talking out of my ass, but I just hope the one person that should be reading this is. And if anyone does read this and you know Winston Churchill, or the ZOB, get it back to me. This is probably not going to happen and I'm going to be out somewhere around $600. Thanks a lot.

11:33am: Jerry Falwell died today. Sounds like a good omen to me.

8:27pm: i just want to have a successful video chat. Is that too much to ask?

2:53pm: feelin' good an' lookin' fly

1:40am: In the mail
15" MacBookPro
* 2.33GHz Intel Core 2 Duo
* 1440 x 900 pixels
* 2GB memory
* 120GB hard drive1
* 6x double-layer SuperDrive
* ATI Mobility Radeon X1600 graphics with 256MB SDRAM

yes please, thankyou.

1:46am: it's hard to be a human being
and it's harder as anything else

8:06pm: Fuck the Trans-Siberian Orchestra.

11:25am: Fuck cops.

9:01pm: I got into colleggge!

11:08am: I get my braces off on December the 14th!

7:32pm: I'm on cobrasnake...heh

9:02pm: I have decided that The Decemberists' new album The Crane Wife, is not only very good, but I like it very much.

5:53pm: October 19- Devendra Banhart at the Palace Theater

November 30- Joanna Newsom at the El Rey Theater

Yesssssss.



and in case you were wondering, yes, the new Joanna Newsom album is good.

5:28pm: This is fucked up.
Don't let the Senate let President Bush off the hook for breaking the law

Hi,

This week, the Senate is planning to quietly hold a vote that would pardon President Bush for breaking the law by illegally wiretapping innocent Americans.

The bill would let the administration off the hook for breaking the law and make it legal to wiretap Americans, in secret, without any oversight whenever they want to.

Democrats and some Republicans are holding strong against it, and if enough of us speak up we can stop it. Can you sign the petition opposing the Republican move to pardon President Bush for breaking the law?

http://pol.moveon.org/dontpardon/

12:50am: Went onstage last night at the Jamie Lidell show (and sang for about a second into the mic)
Spent sixty dollars at Ameoba
Elixir

Chill as fuck man.

12:36am: Reading tomorrow.
5-6:30 PM
Moorpark College
Library
3rd Floor
Tutoring center.

1:48am: In other news, I am now nineteen years of age and feel strange.  Creepy at times, meaningless at others.  What an awful age, nineteen.

9:21am: Our generation is one of slackers and overacheivers, without a whole lot in between.

10:59am:

BBC Radio Five Live asked for help from a deaf lip reader, Jessica Rees, who read the words phonetically to an Italian translator.

She deciphered the insult as being "you're the son of a terrorist whore" - a translation also carried by many national newspapers in Britain on Tuesday.

The BBC's Ten O'Clock News also called in experts to study the television footage of the incident and determined the following:

Materazzi's first word to Zidane was "no" before he then told him to "calm down".

He then accused him of being a "liar" and wished "an ugly death to you and your family" on the day the Frenchman's mother had been taken to hospital ill. This was followed by "Go fuck yourself".

11:54pm: Jerry Bruckheimer is a douchebag.

(the new pirates sucked).

The best part about seeing the movie was seeing the trailer for TRANSFORMERS.

2:05pm: Zinedine Zidane is a total badass.

I'm kinda bummed that Italy won though.

2:19pm: Belle and Sebatian, The Shins and The LA Philharmonic at the bowl next week.

4:22pm: I hate how my face looks/feels ten times bigger than it should be.I

12:59pm: I just got home from the hospital.